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2012-01-23T14:11:00.002+01:00

UPDATE

2011-11-27T14:19:00.000+01:00

Hey you guys!
Okay so basically this is my first post in like HALF A YEAR. Oh my God oh my GOD oh my God!
I obviously haven't blogged at all for the past months..
Well I would still like to tell you guys what's been going on with my life!
Well I'm now in my last year of high school, which is my exam year.. I've had one exam period so far, and it went really great! So now 4 more exam periods to go!

After this year, when I finish high school, I'm going to study Dutch law and management at a great university in another city. Then I would have to live there, too. And normally, students can rent rooms in houses.. But my parents bought an apartment in the city where I'm going to study. So I can live in that apartment, which is great! It's a very very wonderful apartment, I have one bedroom, one living room, kitchen, bathroom, toilet, balconies, little storage rooms, a guest room which will be my parents room when they come and visit me, and another room in which I will take a renter; a girl who I can get along with (don't know who yet) so I don't have to live alone. So that's all very great! it's such a nice thought that a few months from now, I'll do a nice study and live in a great apartment in a green, peaceful neighborhood in the middle of the city. yeah, I'm so excited to go there! But first I have to pass all my exams haha.

And other news, I have a boyfriend since this summer - we hung out all summer and did so many great things together, and then we were officially together. He's the sweetest, he's so wonderful and I'm so happy with him!

So, what else did I do the past few months.. oh yeah, this summer I went to Italy, which was very nice..
Well now of course I owe you guys an explanation of why I haven't blogged at ALL since this summer. I actually would love to explain it, but somehow I don't have an explanation. I just did not feel like blogging at all.. I did not have time for it, I was so busy with other things, and school, too.. (I have never studied so so much!) But I know that you can make time for anything, but somehow I didn't make time to blog.. I also haven't been photographing a lot either! I just don't go outside and take pictures anymore, which is very weird..

If someone one year ago would've told me that in a year I wouldn't use my camera that much anymore, I would have seriously laughed at that. But somehow it's just true. I'm very busy with other things and I don't really take time for photography anymore.
I want to change that though, I want to go out again and take pictures. But I'm not sure if I will. Because the past few months, I wanted to do that as well, and I didn't do it!...
Well, so this is my story haha.

Also, I don't know if this post means that I'm going to start blogging again. I have no idea if I am going to. I just wanted to make this post to explain you guys where I've been and what I've been doing.
Bottom line.. I would love to know how you guys are. How have you been? Tell me all about it!
Love, XXX

seventeen candles

2011-07-30T13:51:00.000+02:00

Today it's my seventeenth birthday! :)

Btw I'm so sorry for the total lack of updates - I'll update you on everything asap!
Love

shorts

2011-07-14T23:47:00.001+02:00

shorts clockwise from top; light denim by american eagle outfitters, floral by h&m, blue from american eagle outfitters, red highwaist denim by levi's at urban outfitters, white lace by h&m, dark denim by only

happyhappyhappy

2011-07-12T08:49:00.001+02:00

Happy 15th birthday to the coolest, sweetest and funniest brother in the world! My best mate, I love you<3

all the dreams I held in my heart had suddenly come true

2011-07-09T23:37:00.002+02:00

these are some books I have to read in the following weeks - for my dutch literature exam list. aaaahhh kill me pleeeasseeee!
love<3

And all we think about is that someday we might have more to think about or less time to decide but if time is on our side then tell me why

2011-07-07T20:32:00.001+02:00

Hey you guys! In a few hours, I'm off to Switzerland & Italy for about two weeks. This was only a small selection of the stuff I packed, haha! gosh, I packed so many stuff... as if I all need that. The only thing I really need though, is this:

my fudging wetsuit!
Can't wait to surf again there. I love (wind)surfing, I'm seriously addicted to it, and it's been a while since I've last done it, so I can't wait! :]
well, I'm off, so it will be quiet out here for 2 weeks! I hope you're all having an amazing summer! love<3

that day the music died

2011-07-06T23:29:00.000+02:00

wearing a skirt from didi children, white top from h+m, stamps watch, six earrings

packing stuff for my summer holiday, listening to don mclean and the sun on full display. perfect.<3

a little less conversation

2011-07-04T14:45:00.000+02:00

the cutest rabbit in the wooorld<3 (the black/white ones are crappy quality photos since I took them with photobooth haha, if my rabbit didn't try to eat my macbook!)

IHEART

2011-07-02T19:06:00.000+02:00

I spotted these cool bags and shoes in town today. Which bag do you like best? (I'm in love with the floral one and the black briefcase one. The thing is, I love the floral one very very much but I think the black briefcase one is more useable for me, you know.) And which pair of shoes do you like best? (They're all in sale!) Hugssss

it's only in the quiet that I hear myself breathe

2011-07-01T17:05:00.000+02:00

ph1 my new bikini, the new esprit women scent, a feather necklace from forever21, new earrings from six, a new eagle bracelet from six iloooveit, and denim shorts from american eagle outfitters nyc
ph2 new lion shirt and black-white shirt both from fishbone at new yorker, bracelets from pieces, peace necklace from clock house, stars and stripes scarf that I use as a belt, from washington dc

hey you guys! the last few days have been plain partying and sleeping late, but right now I'm off that for a few days haha, I'm not feeling like doing anything right now.
All I did today was having fun with my mum.. and decorating some plain wooden photo frames with colours, hearts, sequins, stars and everything. they look so cool and colorful now, and I put my favorite Latin sayings in them, also in loads of different colors.
Oh and I printed out the 4 flags of my favorite ''countries''; sweden, uk, usa and canada, and I put them in photo frames as well. I'm thinking of putting them on my wall in a straight line next to each other, and a poem of each country above it. so above the american flag I'd put an e.e.cummings poem, above the united kingdom flag a poem by tennyson, for the canadian flag I'd use dave margoshes I think, and for sweden karin boye of course. so yeah, I'm in my photo frames days right now haha!
Also, I'm leaving for Switzerland & Italy in 6 days or something, so I should start making a list of stuff to pack.. but I don't feel like doing that right now haha. I don't feel like doing anything real so the coming few days I'll just relax and do as little as possible! so for now: pasta, cranberry juice and some ice cream afterwards. so lovely!
what are your plans for this weekend? love and hugs<3

BACK TO EAST AFRICA

2011-06-27T23:58:00.000+02:00

Hey you guys! I made this collage the other day, it's a selection from my Africa Kenya/Tanzania photos. I'm really happy with it since I've been wanting to do this for such a long time (ever since the trip to Africa which is about a year ago!).
Well I've been actually doing greaaat, it's summer holiday and I've been hanging out with my friends and family; friday me and my friend I went to a party of 2 other friends and chilled with some other mates. I slept over at her place, and oh yeah saturday I went to ikea with my uncle's girlfriend since my uncle and my parents were participating in the local bicycle/mountain bike race. so that was so much fun, we got home and my parents and uncle had just gone home too; they were completely covered in mud since it had been raining and the forests were just one mud bath. it was actually quite funny to see them like that, which I should keep for myself - we all had lunch after they had taken showers and it was really nice. saturday evening I went to another mate's graduation party which was awesome! and sunday I did some relaxing and had a sleepover with my crew of friends, it was great and we had so much fun. so this morning we all had to go to school to get our marks from the test week. my marks are fine, (I didn't do my maths test well, same as economics, but all the other marks were good.) so that's good. I definitely passed this year, which means that after this summer I'll start my last year of high school! graduation year! (can't think of those exams now haha - should stay in my holiday mood!)
a bit of a pity was that I fell hard bicycling today, well I only got a bruise on my shoulder and on my some more on my legs, other than that it just scared/shocked me a bit haha but all's good - thankfully my camera and ipods and cell phone survived it too. my bicycle's steer wasn't on my bike the way it should anymore but I put that right haha. my dad just disinfected the wounds on my skin. I always hate that haha but ah well. Right now I'm off to bed because tomorrow I have to hand in my books at school! how have u been? lovelovelove<3

I want to feel your heartbeat

2011-06-22T23:27:00.000+02:00

h+m tops and earrings

Hey you guys! Yeaaahhh, it's summer holiday for me! :] I've done all my tests, I'm done, I'm freeee! school's out baby! :] I'm so happy though it hasn't really gotten to me yet haha! Today was so relaxed, I did my final test which went good, then I emptied my locker and took all the junk home. I spent the rest of the day relaxing at home, helping my brother studying for his economics test, watching harry potter and the chamber of secrets but I fell asleep during it, sleeeping, eating and watching tv. so right now I'm in bed with my laptop and I actually have no need to go to sleep if I don't feel like it, because it's summer holiday! oh yeah! no thinking about school for 9 weeks or something! I have great things planned with my friends for the following days, I can't wait to get in the holiday mood, you know. I can't wait for that feeling when you wake up and have no idea which day it is, and it doesn't even matter. I can't wait to lose all sense of time, just like I should in a long holiday. I can't wait to go on a holiday to (Switzerland &) Italy with my family and do nothing but surf all day and party all night. long hot days, beach, sun, sand, having fun with the coolest brother in the world, take my camera and go discover cool little places, run away and enjoy life. yeeeaaahh it's all coming my way! :]
Right now I can go to sleep. Or not. ha-ha! (oh my god I'm being so childish about this haha. just so excited about me having summer holiday haha!) good night you guys, you're the best!<3 love

if you knew my story word for word, had all of my history, would you go along with someone like me?

2011-06-19T13:54:00.000+02:00

these are my new jeans from only. the orange scarf worn as belt is from pieces, the orange watch is from stamps and the top from h&m - and the neon pink nail polish is from hema

hey you guys! YEAH, world war one is over! :] that's what I've been yelling to my brother the past few minutes haha. I've been studying for my history test all weekend, and now I'm done! yeah! feels so good!
I can't believe it, I just have to do my history test tomorrow, then English lit on wednesday, and then it's summer holiday! yeah!
today is father's day by the way, so me and my brother went to town yesterday and we got cigars and a perfume set with body lotion by davidoff (or whatever) for our dad, haha. he really liked it.
and I got new earrings and a great new bracelet with an eagle on it - I'll show it soon :]
so, erhm later on I'm going to visit my grandparents for a while, have a cup of tea. always nice.:] and I feel like doing something else. I just don't know what it is haha!
well I hope you all have a wonderful sunday evening over there! love for you<3

If I told you things I did before , told you how I used to be
would you go along with someone like me?
if you knew my story word for word , had all of my history
would you go along with someone like me?

I did before and had my share
it didn't lead nowhere
I would go along with someone like you
it doesn't matter what you did
who you were hanging with
we could stick around and see this night through

and we don't care about the young folks
talkin' 'bout the young style
and we don't care about the old folks
talkin' 'bout the old style too
and we don't care about their own faults
talkin' 'bout our own style
all we care 'bout is talking
talking only me and you

usually when things has gone this far
people tend to disappear
no one will surprise me unless you do

i can tell there's something goin' on
hours seems to disappear
everyone is leaving i'm still with you

it doesn't matter what we do
where we are going too
we can stick around and see this night through

it's like waking up fresh in the sunshine

2011-06-17T16:28:00.000+02:00

the last set o' washington photos

hello you guys, well the first week of my test weeks is over! I've already had my latin test (easy), dutch (easy), management+organization (quite difficult, but okay), economics (difficult, but agreeable) and maths (way too difficult, I swear if I ever hear the word pi again.... grrrr).
Now it's weekend, and the only tests I still have are history (on monday) and english lit (on wednesday). and then it's summer holiday! oh yeah! :]
well I went to town today and I got a nice pair of jeans, they're a bit of light denim, with a little white/orange scarf as a belt. perfect for these days, when it's nice weather but not like shorts-hot yet. I'll show some pictures soon.
tonight my mate is coming over, we'll have an old-fashioned girls night in with movies and snacks. perfect! the rest of the weekend I'll do some studying and relaxing. I also have a few (graduation) parties to hit but I'm not sure if I'll go, I'm kinda focussed on school this last week haha. what are your plans for this weekend? xxxx love<3

mas hoje deixa estar, tudo fora de lugar, a noite é ontem, hoje e o amanhã é agora. Se eu puder te pegar, fazer você me olhar. Garanto que eu não vou dar outro fora

2011-06-09T18:45:00.000+02:00

photos from some time ago

Hey you guys! right now I really should be studying for my test week but I can't find the mood or spirit to do so, haha. gosh I want it to be summer holiday! :) Only 1 and a half more week of school, fortunately :]
oh and by the way I made a tumblr, I've been wanting to do that for quite some time but I didn't find the time nor the mood to discover how it works and the whole theme thing and all haha, anyway I figured that out luckily. So now I have a tumblr, if you want to check it you can find a link to it on the left, under 'find me on'. I'm just going to post random pictures there, old ones, newer ones, just throwing them all in there. I want it to be about my photos and not my words or meaningless chitchat haha.
also, I made a formspring (link on the left as well). lately I've been getting some emails with questions about which camera I use and how i take my pictures and all, and I really appreciate it and like it, but it takes quite some time to reply individually, you know. so I thought I could make a formspring so anyone can ask questions there. it's not like I don't like being emailed though, I love it, but I don't check my email that much and when I do I don't really have time to reply individually so now I have this formspring and I can easily answer questions and it only takes a second. you can also always ask questions here on blogspot too of course, and you can do it on tumblr as well, and formspring then. you can ask away in one of those places haha!
oh yeah and some other great thing, is that I've been wanting to study Swedish for so long. I've actually been wanting to do a swedish home study / course for 2 years now. so I recently sat down with my dad and talked about it, and he said like; well, you've been wanting to do that swedish home course for so long now, if you want to, you can start it this summer. it'll be your birthday present :] so I was soooo extremely happy, I was like yeaaaahhh!! I've been wanting this for ever! I've loved swedish since the first time I got in touch with it a few years ago, I've been teaching myself quite some words and sentences and lyrics and all, but I wanted to learn everything about it you know, the grammar as well. so we ordered it online and I got the whole package at home. it's a big pile of papers in a big note book kinda thing, exercises and vocabulary lists in it, and with cd's for speaking exercises and all. I'm so excited! My mum was like; I want you to put it away because I know you, otherwise you'll start today. i want you to focus on your test weeks first and when those are over, you can start. so I cannot wait until my test weeks are over haha! I just want to start haha! :]
And another thing is that I ordered a new clock and wrist band (for my stamps watches collection haha) online some days ago and it arrived yesterday so I have a great new watch which I'll show soon. I got an orange wrist band and a little white clock with all sorts of little fish on it, it's just the perfect summery watch haha:]
gosh I'm rambling again, I should start studyinggg but I don't want to, bleeergh.
well at least on saturday, sunday and monday I'm off to the music festival! I can look forward to that while opening my maths books right now... spit spit spit on that. :[
love for you guys<3

rough roads

2011-06-06T22:11:00.000+02:00

the last set of nyc photos

Please take me back to that amazing city, the traffic lights, the yellow cabs, the people always in a hurry, the coffee bars, the ice cream stands, the green trees in central parks, the overcrowded pavements, the river, the boats, the museums, the corners, the lost alleys, the bridge.
If only I could fall asleep right now and wake up on the other side of the world.
Take me back to New York. DC. LA. San Francisco. Santa Barbara. Just somewhere in California. Or all of the States, even. Or Kenya. Tanzania. Dominican Republic. Turkey. Spain. France. Italy. England. Someone please take me somewhere, lose me and never take me back here. I want to be anywhere but here. Nobody cares.

whatever, it doesn't matter

2011-06-03T17:57:00.000+02:00

hat from spain, tribal top from forever21; floral skirt from h+m

hey you cuties! I've got a few days off school so right now I'm spending my days studying and enjoying the perfect weather. tonight I have a party/get together with my mates, can't wait. And tomorrow I'm going up north to my family to spend 2 days there.
and then one more week of school and then it's Pinkpop, one the greatest music festivals of my country, and it's just around my corner haha! I'm going with all my mates and it's just going to be perfect. the greatest music (scouting for girls <3 <3 <3, white lies, plain white t's, the script, coldplay, foo fighters, eliza doolittle, kings of leon, simple plan, all time low, justin nozuka, kaiser chiefs, 30 seconds to mars, go back to the zoo, band of horses and so so so much more!), good weather, great afterparties, sleeping in some tents at the festival campsite with my mates, perfect freedom, it's going to be amazing!
and right after the festival, my test weeks will start, haha (some planning of the dutch government. grrrr.) which is fine, because I'm studying for my test weeks already. So I'll just prepare it very well in the week to come, then I'm off to the festival, and then during my test weeks I'll only have to repeat some stuff that's already in my head, haha. luckily I'm good at planning so it'll all work out fine.
and then it's summer holiday already! yeah, my prospects are absolutely fanfudgingtastic and I cannot wait! have a great evening everyone! love<3

La la la, whatever, la la la, it doesn’t matter, la la la, oh well, la la la

We’re going at it tonight, tonight
There’s a party on the rooftop top of the world
Tonight tonight and were dancing on the edge of the Hollywood sign
I don’t know if I’ll make it but watch how good I’ll fake it
Its all right, all right, tonight, tonight

La la la, whatever, la la la, it doesn’t matter, la la la, oh well, la la la

Just don’t stop let’s keep the beat pumpin’
Keep the beat up, lets drop the beat down
It’s my party dance if I want to
We can get crazy let it all out

I can't promise tomorrow, but I can promise tonight

2011-05-30T18:57:00.000+02:00

new york city photos, all by me + canon1000d

Helloyoulovelies! Today the weather is really good here, so I spent my day enjoying it to the fullest, I took a swim and did some sunbathing, and later on I'll join my mum on the grocery shopping so I can take everything I need for my favorite dessert home, and my evening will be perfect!
My weekend was really good, right now I'm actually taking life as it is and enjoying every minute of it. I'm right now kind of like I have no idea what's happening next, but I really love the feeling - I'm doing exactly what I want when I want it and I'm just flowing along with everything. Life's really great!
From tomorrow on, the weather will be rainy again so I'll just go for this summery evening and hope this day will never end. Love for you guys<3

until the poets run out of rhymes

2011-05-27T20:25:00.000+02:00

heart top from urban outfitters, bracelet from forever21, striped lace top forever21

heyyoulovely! tonight I'm going out in town with my friends, it'll be so much fun. and tomorrow I have my best mate's birthday party and then sleepover so my weekend will be great! also, I should do some homework and studying which I very much dislike but it has to be done. what are your plans for this weekend?
right now I'm going to eat my current favorite dessert: strawberries, vanilla ice cream and whipped cream. you can also use raspberries instead of strawberries, but I like strawberries better haha :] looove! <3

get one step closer to me

2011-05-24T17:12:00.000+02:00

flowers, my garden

helloyoulovelies! today my parents have been married for 20 years so we're going out for dinner. quite something haha. r-e-s-p-e-c-t. well I got a new little dress for it so let's put that on, haha. have a great day everyone!<3 love

parallel worlds

2011-05-21T10:43:00.000+02:00

washington photos, all by me - canon1000d

Helloyoulovelies.<3 yesterday was a nice day, school was good and my marks are really great so it's all going well, after school I had my uncle's family party that was really nice - I played with my niece's little son, he's the cutest ever! we did a little puzzle and looked through a book and all, and we played some games with the lamp and my bracelet haha. the lamp was broken (it didn't switch on when you pushed the button) so he was like (in dutch of course haha) : lamp is broken! broken! and with the puzzle he was like (when I asked him where this puzzle piece had to go) : there! there! ahmygawd it was so cute. I still laugh when I think about it haha. I also got some wet-soup-mouth-kisses from him haha. Awww!

Then yesterday I went to the surprise party for a friend of mine, it was his bday, all of us were there and he didn't see it coming, it was a great surprise haha. great day:)

So right now I'm going to work on another philosophy essay thing, and then on this huge project called 'profielwerkstuk' (it's kind of like a really big project / paper / exam or something, you have to do it for one specific subject of yours, and it takes two years actually. I'm in my year before my final year right now, so I have to start it this year and then finish it next year.) I'm doing it for Latin, I just loooove Latin and the Romans, ah my gawd I really love that, so I'm going to do the paper about the Roman law and what aspects of the Roman law can still be found in our Dutch law nowadays.
But I have to specify that into some kind of case like; what's the difference between Roman law in Ancient Rome and Dutch law nowadays when it comes to murder / the position of the woman in society / incest / robbery / fraud. Something like that. I don't know the actual specific case yet (I have to pick one) - so I have to think about that this weekend and then tell my project mentor what the specific case is going to be. I'm kind of curious what I'll find!

GOSH I'm rambling so much what is wrong with me? I will no longer bore you and put myself to work, haha. Guys, I love you! hugs &have a great saturday! <3

right now the sun is in your eyes

2011-05-19T23:49:00.000+02:00

wearing an h&m skirt and shirt, vero moda leggings, hat from a market in spain, bracelet from budapest, havaianas flipflops

imagine all the lonely people

2011-05-17T20:16:00.000+02:00

nyc photos (central park)
the last photo is the john lennon memorial 'Imagine' in strawberry fields, central park, where he was shot.
Right now I want to do so many photography shoots, for the first time in quite some time I have inspiration to do some, but right now I'm so tired aarrggh I hope for tomorrow though. i love all you guys so much, you're the best<3 love

COLORED SKIES

2011-05-16T22:57:00.000+02:00

photos taken from the airplane
We're over and I feel quite peaceful right now. It wasn't working anymore between us. We have made each other so happy but for the past few months it didn't work anymore. This is the right thing. I'm done, I should let you go. I feel relieved and peaceful. You'll always have a special place in my heart.

For every kiss your beauty trumped my doubt

2011-05-14T19:17:00.000+02:00

nyc photos

I'm suffocating, I can't breathe
Let me out this cage I'm not gonna hold it
Set me free

every time that we meet I skip a heartbeat

2011-05-12T20:42:00.000+02:00

nyc photos

helloyouhandsome! it's been a busy week, right now I'm watching the euro vision song festival it's quite nice haha. tomorrow night I'm going out with my friends in town and then sleep over at my mate's, it'll be awesome, and let's celebrate the fact that here I can drink whatever I want again! (couldn't drink any alcohol in the states, haha! the age is 21, which is of course good, but it's nice that here everyone can drink at 16 haha - which is exactly what everybody does. omg I'm rambling again :] though it's too bad the driving age is 18 here instead of 16 in the usa! ) the weather's been really good here lately and I actually feel really great right now. I have so many things to be extremely happy about! :] enjoy your night! love and hugs

I want to wake up in a city that never sleeps

2011-05-08T21:12:00.000+02:00

nyc unedited

Back home from NYC & Washington DC! It was just so so so amazing! Right now I'm extremely tired and my bed is calling my name, but I promise a whole shitload of photos coming up the following days. goodnight sleeptight

Washington DC

2011-05-05T15:49:00.000+02:00

Hey you lovelies!! Right now I'm having breakfast at Starbucks in DC!! This city is really amazing as well as NYC!! You can't compare them, I think. This city is so much more quiet and relaxed and clean, haha! I am seriously in love with these two cities.By the way, you should try the morning bun at starbucks haha!!Love

Quick NYC update

2011-05-02T14:47:00.002+02:00

Right now I'm on the Met steps in New York City!!! This city is so incredibly unbelievably awesome!!! It's insane, I love it!! We spent the day cycling through central park so far. This place is amazing! God bless America!!! Love

nitimur in vetitum semper cupimusque negata

2011-04-25T14:36:00.000+02:00

top from h&m l.o.g.g., bershka denim jeans, flipflops from spain, jewelry from lucardi and six

Nitimur invetitum semper cupimusque negata
Wij strevenaltijd naar het verbodene en begeren hetgeen ons ontzegd is

Imagine me and you, I do, I think about you day and night

2011-04-23T09:13:00.000+02:00

Oh my god, I've hit the lowest point ever in my blogging. I'm so sorry for the total lack of updates for the past ehm.. weeks! I've been busy with school, friends, family and my boyfriend (we are back together!.. I just couldn't handle being without him and neither could he. we got back together, talking about how we could do things differently and how we should just stop all the drama and start live and enjoy. and we're now so much more casual around each other, it's great, we give each other space but still we give each other so much love, and I am really glad with the way it's going now!). Not that any of that is an excuse to leave a dead silence here, but still, I just wanted to let you know. Today I'm going to town to do some more shopping, I'm in the total mood, haha! then later on, friends of my parents' are coming over with their little children, we're going to swim, play games and have a barbecue and just enjoy the lovely weather. and tonight my grandparents from up north are coming over, because tomorrow we have an Easter brunch with them and with my other grandparents, aunt and uncle and niece, as well. it'll be so much fun! which reminds me to tell you Happy Easter! I hope you really have a nice few days with your family and friends, and some Easter eggs of course! :) And Monday I'm off school, yeay!

Yesterday I was at the airport. I love being on airports because there my imagination gets overhand. I love to be there and look around, look at the all the people who come and go there. Where would they come from? From a place with loads of love, fun, happiness and care? How would they have said goodbye to the people they've left behind? With a warm hug and a kiss, or with a tear? Would they come from home, and go some place new, or would they come from some place new and go back home?
Where would they go? How would they react when they reached their destination? How would they say hello to the people they visit? With a warm hug and a kiss, or with a tear? Maybe it's been years.
What would there be in their luggage, beside from clothes and necessary stuff? Gifts for the people they visit, or maybe souvenirs for the people they come home to.
What would they tell to the people they meet or come home to? What would they talk about? What do they think about when the airplane lands? 'Finally, we're here, I'm so curious!', or 'I can't believe it's over and I'm back now...'
What would they think when they got off the plane? What would they think when they entered the airport hall? Would there be people waiting for them, with 'welcome home' boards? Or would they have to travel miles and miles more before they got to their destination?
If the plane would crash, what would be the last words in their minds? Who would be the people they thought about? Would they enjoy their time back home or at some new destination?
I want everybody to be happy.

you were always like a feather in my life

2011-04-08T19:09:00.000+02:00

Ph1,2 my newest dreamcatcher from austria, brown Ph3 my old dreamcatcher, green

You were always like a feather in my life

I never knew you were flying or falling

You were always like a feather in my life

I hope you fly

I love you so much and I have no idea how I feel right now. I know how I feel about you though. I love you, and I wish things could go back to how they were. But it's all so hard. And difficult. And confusing. But what I do know is that my heart is full of love for you and it always will. If only things were easier.

hey guys! tonight I'm going out in town with my friend :) and tomorrow night I have a party of another friend. So it'll be so much fun and I'm really excited! Have a great weekend everyone! love<3

I used to be love drunk but now I'm hungover

2011-04-06T22:14:00.000+02:00

lights photos + grain

Hey you guys! I'm so sorry for the lack of updates, I'm so busy with everything and nothing, and I am everywhere and nowhere all the time haha, the days are just weird right now, I really wish I could take some cool photos any time soon but I have no idea when, haha.

Well today was a great day, I was off school early, then I went to town and I got some summer clothes! I got a flowery skirt, flower shorts, a little tie around belt, and indiana-like shoes with fringes. I really can't get enough of the whole indian - gypsy style right now actually, it's inspiring me so much! I wish I was on a holiday right now haha, because then I feel like that more, you know, all free and independent and careless and right now I'd love to go on adventures in some place I've never been before, wearing all indian and gypsy clothes and jewelry and feather crowns and all, haha.

And something more personal; I broke up with my boyfriend a few days ago, which is also why I haven't been posting you know, it's just all fuzzy and weird in my head. We were having problems for months, we had lots of fights and talks and tears and grief and it just wasn't working anymore, we both were not happy anymore, and I didn't want that any more, I just didn't, because in a relationship you need to be happy, if you're not, it's just not right. So it was a terrible thing to do of course. In the beginning I felt very sad of course. Then I started feeling relieved. No more fights and no more drama, I can't deal with any more drama right now. I felt quite okay, until me and him had dance class together which was weird and awkward and hurtful of course, after that I had no idea what I thought, I felt all sad again, which is very logical of course, but still. And then I felt a bit better again, school was a great distraction and I had fun with my friends and all, so that was good. I was feeling fine.

What I did/do worry about it how it goes on from now of course; he wasn't only my boyfriend for the last one and a half years, he was also my best (guy) friend, you know, and that means the world to me still, I just don't want to lose that completely, so we went to town together and you know shopping a bit, it was really really nice and I felt such a relief, I thought I really want our contact to always be there, you know. I don't know, maybe, later, some time, we can talk and work things out, maybe one time we can do the things right that kept going wrong. I don't know, maybe, who knows. Maybe not, maybe the fact that it's over is for good and maybe for the best, I have no idea right now. We do love each other of course, love and care and being in love was never our problem! We love each other so much. that's maybe why it is kind of weird and difficult, you know, it's easier to let something go when there is no love left. But there is, which is hard. But our relationship just didn't work any more, at the end. I don't know, we'll see. I'll see how everything goes. I have no idea what I'll be feeling in some time, you know. Right now I feel quite okay, but maybe that's because it hasn't completely gotten to me yet that it is over. Or because I focus on doing fun stuff with my friends and family and planning outings and all. I'll see. So as you might've guessed, I'm in rather a weird place right now, loads of thoughts and all. but right now I feel like it's good that it is done now. All the drama is just done and over now, and that's definitely good. It just didn't work any more.

So. Enough about that personal rambling. We'll see how things go and turn out. Tomorrow evening I'm going to the movies with my mom, that should be fun! And Friday evening I'm going out with my friend. And Saturday evening I'm off to my friend's birthday party which is amazing every year haha. So I'm really looking forward to that! How are things with you? xxx so much love

on an evening in Roma

2011-04-02T10:56:00.002+02:00

Rome spring 2011 unedited

Hey everyone! Yesterday I got back from Rome! It was so completely amazing and wicked and great and breathtaking and everything, really I can't even describe it! The city is so beautiful, I went there with all my friends and classmates and it was just so so wonderful, we had such a great time and we got so much closer, it was just amazing, one of the best weeks of my life actually!! Also, we went out a few nights and that was just so wicked haha, there was this amazing club where danced the nights away! I really didn't want to leave! Too bad I'm at home again! Well, not that I can complain: 4 more weeks of school and then it's spring break, off to NYC & washington! OMG I cannot wait! (I keep talking about it, don't I?) well right now I really have got to clean my room and all, have some breakfast, do some school work, then off to do some relaxing. I do not want this great week to end. How were your days? Love xxxx

and it takes my breath away

2011-03-25T10:51:00.000+01:00

this is what yesterday afternoon looked like; me and my boyfriend bicycling around town, having a picnic in the woods and just enjoying the blue sky and the sunny weather.
yesterday evening all of my mates came over and we watched 'lizzie mcquire the movie' because it's about rome and we're all going there tomorrow morning (!) so we wanted to get in the mood already hahah! Well, I just finished packing for Rome.. I'm so excited! I'm going to the city of the Romans, who are my heroes, with all my friends and classmates, and it's just gonna be so awesome!! can't believe that I'm going there in a few hours actually! Yeah! The Eternal City! :) so it will be quiet out here for a few days but next Friday then I'll come back with hopefully loaaadss of pictures ! have a great weekend + a great week everyone! talk to you very soon! love <3

should've turned around and left before the sun came up again

2011-03-22T23:29:00.000+01:00

grey sweater and top from h+m, sutherland stretch skinnies, shoes from some nameless store, knokk watch, six jewelry

sweeties <3 these pictures are taken quite long ago haha, i just don't have the time to take new ones, ah it's so bad :o one more day of school, then thursday&friday I'm off school yeeaaayy some time to shoot maybe, and then saturday morning 6.30 AM OFF TO ROME with my friends and classmates! can't wait! now: sleeepppp! love<3

I'm too tired to listen, I'm too old to believe

2011-03-16T18:37:00.000+01:00

Ph1,2,3,4 these pictures show how I store my accessories/ jewelry right now. The silver little plate with the little tree and bird on it (it's actually not a jewelry hanger of course) is from v&d, the black jewelry tree on ph3 is from a gift shop, the green jewelry tree on ph4 was a gift. All the accessories are from six/accessorize/ claire's / the sting / bijou brigitte/ vd/pieces/ africa /dominican republic /spain/china/ gifts / selfmade :)
Ph5,6 these pictures show what I used to store my jewelry like (in the ikea bowl that I got for christmas). But I didn't like it anymore since it was a bit messy and it also looked unorganized, and the bowl was in the way of everything, haha. Also, the bowl looks nicer with some fruit or chocolates in it, instead of a napkin and some jewelry haha. but i wanted to show it anyway :)

guys i just wanted to say that i love each and every one of you so so much and thank you so much for following and commenting, i am so happy every time i see it! i try to respond to everyone asap. i love you xoxo <3

too many hearts are broken - a lover's promise never came with a maybe. So many words are left unspoken - the silent voices are driving me crazy

2011-03-13T13:17:00.000+01:00

cardigan, double belt and top from pieces, sutherland skinnies, six jewelry, knokk watch

Hey guys! Yesterday I got back from my holiday in Austria! It was really cool, and mostly relaxing! We spent a lot of time skiing, eating and sleeping, haha! It's good to be 'reloaded' again, haha - all set for a few more weeks of school. and then off to Rome! and then some more school, and then a weekend to Brussels with my boyfriend! and then some more school, and off to NYC & washington DC! and then it's almost summer! and then I'm going to a music festival for 3 days! o-m-g i cannot wait for all the great things to come! :)

it's good to be back home! oh and i bought a gorgeous brown/black dreamcatcher in a nature store in some village over there. Now I have 2 in my room, haha! :) and i bought a blue waist belt, it's really cool :)

Another thing, well my boyfriend and I have been wanting to go on a dance class together, since like, ever. we love to dance together, when we go out in town it's always what we do, but that's cool, modern dancing, you know, regueton and disco dancing haha. But what we also really really want to learn is couple dancing; ballroom dancing, you know the whole thing; quick step and all those different couple dances (we already can do the salsa haha). and tonight we're going to a dance school in town to see if we can take dance classes there. I hope we can, it would be so amazing! we've been wanting to do that for so long, but I got ill and the whole operation and all, so we never came to it.. but now hopefully we are :)

how have you guys been? love<3

I'm running late, I'm all alone, wishing I was home with you baby

2011-03-03T21:01:00.000+01:00

blue longsleeve, double belt and cardigan from pieces, sutherland stretch skinnies, sacha boots, rings and black feather earrings from six, bracelet from africa

I'm running late, I'm all alone

wishing I was home with you baby

you've got a way of making things okay

when you're not around, when you're not around I'm going crazy

We like to talk about the plans we make
And things we say when we're together
I hope for better weather this year
But you my dear, need to know
This year I want you alone

Hey you guys! One more day and it's finally holiday! One week off! I'll be spending my week in Austria, our annual winter sport week, in an apartment with loads of food, family and fun. I am seriously going to relax so much! I've been working my head off the past 2 months or something, so I really need a vacation! I cannot wait to hit the slopes and enjoy the freedom and nature! I just finished packing my bags, I always overpack haha :)

Oh, by the way: I've got a black eye! (Not on the pictures though haha, because they were taken some time ago, and I got my black eye on Monday. It's not even a black eye anymore! It's now purple, blue, green and yellow hahaha, I'll get all the rainbow colours!

The story is, that my brother was very very happy to see me (he had his test week so he was just excited to have survived another day of it) and he started jumping around me, singing and telling me stories, he was very wild, so then he started running around me and tickling me, then, accidentally, his head came up very quickly and hardly, BOOM!, right in my eye! And now it's been black for a few days haha! (more colours are added every day!)

At first I was like OMG but ah well there's nothing I can do about it now. it looks like I've had a punch in the face, hahah :) I am seriously not showing any pictures! however, I'm off to watch some series now and then to sleep. I'm so tired, you can't even imagine! One more day....! Love and hugs!

Have you ever had the sense that we've been lying just a little?

2011-02-28T10:16:00.001+01:00

selfmade earrings, the rest is all from only/pieces

Do you ever get the feeling that we started in the middle?

Or have you ever had the sense that we've been lying just a little?
I mean, come on, it's not like we've known ourselves that long

and I can't say I really blame you for being bored with the beginning
always staring at the score to figure out who's barely winning
but don't you know, there is a reason strong moves slow

and I'm okay, if you're okay with wasting time
but when you trace, you always see the bottom line

we are tracing, I hope you know
we are tracing

and if you want to know the moment I knew that I was still alone
I found I'd never learned your number, I only stored it in my phone
you'd think by now, I'd know the shape of calling home

Remind me one last time that you will never ever go

2011-02-25T19:25:00.000+01:00

clouds + grain

Someone please tell me what to do. Tell me what to feel. What to think. Tell me which path to choose. Tell me which way to go. Tell me what to do. Whichever I choose, I don't think it will bring happiness. I think it will bring sadness and tears. Both the paths will. Loneliness... When is something 'real'? When can I call something 'real', or 'the truth'? If I believe in it? If there are no lies involved? Or if I want it to be the truth? But if I want it to be the truth, then isn't it automatically my truth? How can someone make their truth someone other's truth?Is what I see, and what I touch, like a blanket or a window, as real as something I can't see or can't touch? A star? The moon? A love. I can't see it, I can't touch it. How do I know it's there? And mostly, when is it real? How 'real' are feelings? What is a feeling? When can I decide if it's real? How can something that I refuse to believe, be the truth? Be my truth? How can something that you refuse to believe, be the truth? Be your truth? Another day and I'm slowly moving on to you. Or from you. There's something that I'd really like to say. All along, I've tried to turn the time. If only I knew of a way to leave it all behind. The stars seem right tonight, or do they not? Do I have to do this? If only I knew to shake it off my mind. Is this what we need, even if this will not mean always? I wish I could run away and never ever think about anything again.If only I could close my eyes and listen to my heart. But my heart speaks a language I don't understand. If only I could close my eyes and understand my feelings. But I feel nothing. I don't know what I'm feeling. And if the sky above you should turn dark and full of clouds, I don't know whether I want to make it bright again, or not. If you long for me, if you do, what can I do about it? How can I ever look into your eyes again, and have faith? Trust? Hope? They take your soul if you let them. If I take one path, will it be forever? Is a choice forever? Can it be undone? Can anyone change? I'm not afraid to walk away. I'm also not afraid to stay. This isn't about fear. It's about honesty. Credibility. Truth. Faith. Someone, something, tell me what to do. Fearless and once so full of emotion and faith, trust, believe, heart, please, tell me what to do.

steady now, your dreams are impending

2011-02-23T09:19:00.002+01:00

wearing: found back my old trenchcoat from h&m, I love it, and I hope the weather will be better so I can wear it again! sutherland black stretch skinnies, pieces top and double belt, only cardigan, hm scarf, sacha boots, jewelry from six and from africa.

hey you sweeties<3 I'm feeling a lot better, thankfully, so today I'm off to school again. (how I missed the place!) cannot wait for all the lovely holidays and trips to come! have a great day everyone! love and hugs<3

run away with my heart

2011-02-21T21:13:00.000+01:00

daisy perfume by marc jacobs (it's my all time favorite!), mint nail polish from w.i.c., ring from six, other perfumes by cacharel, beyonce, miss laloa, oilily and versus red jeans women, bracelets from pandora and otazu.

Hey you guys! Well the last few days haven't been that great, which is the understatement of the year - I was still ill / ill again. Summary: we even had to go to the hospital on saturday night, all was bad again - but I wanted to go home so badly so they let me...! antibiotic pills and all, blood tests, echos, examinations.. my whole kidney and all is infected again... so... can't describe how mad I was. and how sad. and how disappointed. (it even made me acting so grumpy and arrogant against those doctors. ah well, they're my dad's friends/colleagues so.. anyway, I was just so mad and disappointed. I felt drugged and blurry - I couldn't believe it - why? why again? not again... Well, it even made my cynical. I won't tell you about the way I behaved there. not to be repeated.)
I just thought, I just hoped, that all of this would be over now. All the pain, infections, taking pills, the worries, the tears, the disappointments, everything. But it's not.
anyway, so today I didn't go to school. I went to the specialist/doctor that did my operation.. he gave me some good answers though, so i felt better :) ehm well right now it's just about giving myself time to get better haha. I do feel a lot better today than I did yesterday! all those pills definitely do their work, haha. :)
Right now I'm listening to the radio on my iPod, the weirdest song is on, something like: 'robert deniro is waiting, talking to tanya..' w-t-f? who writes this? oh it's finished now haha - I'm rambling again aren't I?
well, off to my glass of cranberry juice. not that bad! Love & hugs<3

through the thunder and lightning

2011-02-18T17:43:00.000+01:00

self portrait 2011

Hey guys, last night I felt very ill, my belly and my lower back were hurting so so much, so I actually spend the night crying, screaming and kicking around instead of sleeping.. my parents took care of me but I still didn't really feel better.. I was praying to God that it wasn't my kidney again... I don't know what it was really. anyway, so I fell asleep finally, after pills and warm water and all, but when I woke up this morning my belly was still acting up, I didn't really feel better, so I stayed at home, slept some more, rested a bit, had some breakfast and lunch. Right now it's 5.34 pm and I feel better, thank God! Tonight I'll just relax. I don't have energy to do anything else, haha. And let's see if my boyfriend allows me to straighten his curly hair, haha - that will be hilarious! :)

Also, I've changed my blog's name. And I'm thinking about making my blog more about photos and less about words / chitchat / talking. I don't know..!

have a great friday night folks! iloveyou<3

140211

2011-02-14T22:32:00.000+01:00

Happy Valentine's Day everyone! Get loads of cards and flowers and kisses and hugs and chocolate bars and toy bears and I don't know what!
Personally, I don't really think of this day as a very special day; I don't think you have to pick one day in the year to treat someone or to show someone that you think he or she is very special. I think you should do that any day, every day. Especially those really special persons in your life; for example I buy my mum some flowers every once in a while to surprise her, and I don't think you have to do that on one specific day. Also, I think it's a shame that Valentine's Day is now all blown up because of the commerce (commerciality? idk), you know, everyone's making a big deal out of it, while I think that you should buy a little, cute tiny present to give to someone, not something expensive or big!
But, of course, this day is a wonderful day to give someone a nice little present or a sweet card, and to show that person that you care! What do you think?
Love, hugs and kisses

I'd rather be with you

2011-02-09T21:58:00.000+01:00

long sweater from yessica, h+m tights and socks, dolcis boots, vero moda necklace, bracelets from the sting and rings from six, earrings from envy.

Sitting here, on this lonely dock

Watch the rain play on the ocean top
All the things I feel I need to say
I can't explain in any other way

I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a boy like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too

Now here's the sun, come to dry the rain
Warm my shoulders and relieve my pain
You're the one thing that I'm missing here
With you beside me I no longer fear

XXL FRIDAY'S INSPIRATION

2011-02-04T19:14:00.000+01:00

pictures source and source.

Hey you guys, well my past few weeks were practically awful, i'm so busy that's why i post so little, i'm really sorry but there's not much i can do about it. i just have to stick trough it a few more weeks, then it's holiday for one week (winter sport - austria - ski slopes here i come!) and then it's 2 more weeks of school, then off to ROME with my school, then a few more weeks and then it's spring holiday (NEW YORK AND WASHINGTON DC here I come! yeah! so excited i can't even tell you!!) and then it's almost summer holiday! haha so there are plenty amazingly cool things to come, but for now it's just a busy time. well...

at least the sun is in your eyes.
there ain't no better time
I feel like you're alive in me.
can you take me there? can you take me there?
I get anxious just to know you're the one I get home to.
being without you makes me suffocate
because baby I breathe you
Right now the sun is in your eyes,
the moment has arrived to see
Right now there ain’t no better time,
I feel like you’re alive in me
Can you take me, can you take me,
can you take me there?

I feel like something is special here, with you.

tonight I'm off to the movies with my boyfriend and then into town, to dance the night away together. I cannot think of anything else I'd rather do tonight! And tomorrow my grandparents are coming over for the weekend, I love that so much! I do have to do a whole lot of homework this weekend though, but it's always less horrible with family around.. then my homework speed goes up a lot, haha! have a nice friday evening lovelies! go nuts, freak out, be crazy, forget everything and just enjoy! i love you guys <3

veritas vos liberabit

2011-01-26T18:31:00.000+01:00

hello! thought i'd tell you about this note book i have where i write all kinds of stuff in; lyrics, poems, fashion, photography and blogging ideas, stuff about music, thoughts, ideas, observations, notes, lists, dreams, anything that's on my mind actually.. i've always kept it kind of secret from everyone, which is silly because there's nothing secret about it haha, it is personal though, but i thought i'd show you some parts of it.. the personal parts i don't show though haha. okay what am i even saying?!

you'll probably notice that there are a lot of different languages in my note book but that is because i'm in love with so many languages! (i can speak dutch cause i live here, english of course, some french, german, some italian, some spanish, and i love love love swedish, and i can read latin and ancient greek, so there are a lot of different languages that i write stuff about or in, haha.) and you'll also maybe recognize some of my blog post titles since i got those from lyrics from songs, haha :) okay, I'm rambling.. hugs!

Is it made up in my mind?

2011-01-24T18:41:00.000+01:00

white coat from yessica sport, sutherland skinnies, scarf from h&m, snow boots from primark, ring from six

Hello! the start of a brand new week (yeay..), so far I'm pretty content, my dutch literature test went well and school was quite nice today. i think this week and the next week will a bit more quiet and relaxed, and then after that, it will be very busy again. so I'd better just enjoy these 2 weeks a bit, now that it's still do-able. right now I'm going to work on my philosophy essay (Aristotle, help me out here?!) and then off to the gym (hate that!). have a nice evening, i love you guys<3!

I don't know what to think, is this real orjust a dream?

In my heart is where you'll be, I'll keep waiting 'till we meet

What if we were made for each other?

Born to become best friends and lovers

Iwant to stay right here in this moment with you

over and over and over again

Is it made up in my mind?

Am I crazy just wasting time?

I think this could belove - I'm serious

1-2-3-4-5

2011-01-23T17:47:00.000+01:00

booooredom. -.- (zhis is stupid.)

Hey you guys! I'm sorry for the death silence over here, i've been way too busy with school last week, and i went away for the weekend. i went to a lovely hotel in the germany with my boyfriend's family. all we did up there was just relax and have fun, so right now I'm all serene again haha (;p) full of new energy. for the a-mazing time to come (NOT. take me out of school, someone!). well, now that I'm back at home, unfortunately, i'm going to have dinner and watch a film i think. have a great evening guys, love<3

And I'm a little bit lost without you, and I'm a bloody big mess inside

2011-01-15T13:40:00.000+01:00

Ph by me - all the snow's gone now unfortunately, and without it this town looks so sad and grey and rainy now, i wish the snow came back so it would look like a fairy tale again :]
ph1 is the little lake where there's fishing going on in summer. and bonfires and all.
ph2 is a little bridge over a pond that was all frozen at that picture. that little bridge is really me and my boyfriend's special place in the woods. we've spent so many hours there, talking about the past, the present, the future, our hopes and dreams, our fears, at that bridge we've been crying, laughing, fighting, talking, just anything. we went through so many stuff at that very bridge. it really has a little special place in my heart.
ph3,4 the thing i loved most about the snow is that it's everywhere - every tiny little part of a tree, every leaf, everything had a bit of snow on it.

Hey you guys! well I'm so glad it's weekend! i've slept super super long, i just had some breakfast, and now i'm reading some magazines and all. i should start my homework though, haha, but i don't feel like it, so let's not. i've been so busy with school lately, i've had so many tests the last 2 weeks, and they all went really well and i got high marks for them so it doesn't feel like a waste of energy that could've been spent better haha.
tonight we're going out for dinner with some old friends and all - i think it'll be fun. and tomorrow i'm going to sleep even longer, haha! i hope you have a great saturday, relax & take it easy! love<3

Cras amet qui numquam amavit quique amavit cras amet.

2011-01-12T22:50:00.000+01:00

panama hat from a vintage market in spain ( - it's the perfect summer accessory. pair with any denim shorts and a cool tee, some flipflops and you're just done. oh, i long for summer)

Hey you guys, I've had a few really busy days at school and let's just say I'm glad that time has the ability to pass by. the world looks sad, this stupid town looks gray, rainy, lonesome and sad, and it just makes me feel like that as well. however, today i went to see my doctor (who did my kidney operation) and it all went well, he was very happy to hear that i'm doing fine and that i haven't really had problems since the operation. in a few weeks, I'll have 2 medical examinations to see how my kidney looks like now, you know, to see if it has improved a lot and all. but i'm sure it'll be fine.
in other news, i have been wanting to make a little film of my Africa photos for so long now, and I'm working on it right now. but I think I'm going to start over haha because I don't like the order of the photos this way, (i want it to be chronically) and I want different music and all haha. oh, modern technology.
goodnight sweethearts<3

Cras amet qui numquam amavit quique amavit cras amet.
Laat hij, die nooit bemind heeft, morgen beminnen, en laat hij die heeft bemind, morgen beminnen
Pervigilium Veneris

lions ain't the kind you love enough

2011-01-10T10:47:00.001+01:00

Here's part two of my room post!

above: a little black/white beauty case filled with lipgloss and lipstick and lip cream and lip.. just any lip stuff

cute little red/white hearted duck

a little pot of glass filled with sweets

a beautiful Christ candle

my white board filled with cool post cards, sweet little notes, tickets and recipes, photos, cards, magnets, just anything. but only recent stuff, because i get so many stuff of that every month, i have to change it every month haha.

two cute little magnets, the left one i got from my boyfriend, the right one from my grandmother.

the left one says: 'I love the little things in life.. shoes,bags and jewelry' (it's so me, haha!)

and the right one says: 'a hug is never too big or too small' (i totally agree)

a sweet drawing of Pinoccio that my mother's best friend's little daughter made when I was in the hospital. it's so sweet of her and so cute. it says: 'Pinoccio helps you getting better, even though he lies ;)' haha :]

a big blue denim beauty case with all my nail polish in it, and all my nail stuff.

a little black/white James Dean painting on canvas, he's so great

a little drawer box with some old jewelry

my house slippers, they're super warm and comfy

Have a great evening! kisses!

si vis pacem, para bellum

2011-01-09T09:18:00.002+01:00

high-waisted pants and belt from vero moda, h&m longsleeve, promod heels

Hey you guys! this weekend is practically dedicated to homework and stupidness. i spent so many hours on working for school, argh, they need to give me a break. I did go to a friends meeting / sleepover on saturday, it was extremely cool! I just got back from the gym (after my operation, I need to rebuild my body condition and all), it's not really my thing though haha, I know, but ah well at least i can listen to my ipod while doing cardio, haha. right now: more homework, probably. triple hurray. Love you<3

you don't know what you're doing to me

2011-01-07T10:18:00.001+01:00

Hey you guys! I got some requests to show a bit of my room / the stuff in my room, I did do a room post before though (click here) but anyway I thought it'd be fun to do again, since I got some new stuff and redecorated it a bit since that room post. . this is only part one haha, part2 to follow soon.. :] the description of something is below the picture.

a glass pot with some little soap and bath stuff in it

my bed with a white and a patchwork plaid over it (it normally doesn't look like that though haha.) oh, just figured that my dreamcatcher doesn't work when it's hanging to the wall..

my vintage chair that my grandfather made during world war two (in secret! You weren't allowed to take wood from the woods, the german army needed that) so it's quite a cool chair with an entire story behind it. and a red heart with arms, i had that heart with me in my bed when i had the operation haha.

APPLE<3

life is too short to drink bad wine :] and yes, we can drink at sixteen here.

a woman statue where i put necklaces around, and a frog clock, both were gifts

some goood films. and GG of course.

a glittery lava lamp that i got for christmas :]

a philips color led light (you can change the color to your mood) that i got last christmas, haha

some facial masks that i hardly ever use actually, and headbands

to be continued.. :]

lovelovelove<3

Come along for the ride

2011-01-05T15:44:00.000+01:00

pied de poule jacket and shirt from h+m, sutherland skinnies, sacha boots, earrings and silver ring from six, bracelet from pieces, love ring from bijou brigitte.

Bonjour! I gotta say it is g-r-e-a-t to be back in school (haha, not), I'm so so busy already, I'm drowning in school work. there are so many tests coming up and all. right now I'm off to study for my history test that i have tomorrow. (the cold war, yippee.) and then I'm off to my boyfriend's place.. finally. how are you? drowning in school work as well? wishing you graduated already? peace&love<3

the rise of the dresser table

2011-01-02T18:02:00.000+01:00

So here is the result!

(dresser table from ikea, bracelets from pandora and otazu, stamps watches, and the little piggy bank was a christmas gift) photos by me

Hey you guys! so THIS is my new christmas gift - amazing gorgeous dresser table! it's so cool and i am so happy with it. it's very modern, because it's white and it has a glass plate on the table, but it also has a vintage-y feel, because of the oval mirror and the paws. and i put my white vintage chair next to it, to complete it haha. and i put some nice perfumes and jewelry stuff on it.
well, new year's eve was really really great, i went to town afterwards and we partied and danced till morning, yesterday i didn't do much actually haha, i was too tired anyway, and today i did some studying since school starts again tomorrow. you won't believe how i do not want to go. i wish i could take the first train to the other side of the world right now, and not think about anything stupid like school ever again. ah well. i also took some photos of my room and stuff in my room, since i got some requests for that. i'll show them soon. well, right now i'm off watching a movie and wishing i could control the time. so i could get back to summer holiday. or just stop the time now. anything, as long as tomorrow doesn't have to come. take me away! love<3

2010/2011

2010-12-31T19:12:00.000+01:00

shirt from primark, skirt bought in london, tights from vd, fringe bracelet from bijou brigitte, colour bracelets from pieces, earrings from six.

Hey! It's the last day of 2010 already! Some parts of this year went by so fast (the amazing holidays to France and Paris, to Berlin, to Austria, to Kenya and Tanzania, to Hungary) and some parts went incredibly slow (school, test weeks, medical examinations, the operation and the recovery, having to take medicines every fucking day..).
I would like to say that 2010 was an incredibly cool year, I mean, it was, I've experienced and seen so many amazing things, but since the whole surgery shit stuff is more recent, that stuff is more on my mind now, when I think about last year. But before that, it was a great year, haha. :]
Oh, right now there's fireworks all over town. (what is that ridiculous law in this ridiculous country saying that you can do fireworks all day before new year's eve, and the day after?) I'm kind of afraid of it, haha - I would never ever touch any fireworks or put them on, not in a million years!

The greatest thing from this year was: the summer holiday, when I had so much fun and nothing else on my mind.
The worst thing from this year was the kidney operation and being in the hospital for way too long.
The most memorable thing was when I had dinner on a cocktail boat on a warm, Hungarian summer night, with a red cocktail in my hand, eating the best salmon ever, looking around into the dark night and seeing all the lights from Budapest, and staring in my boyfriend's eyes... And the check afterwards. :O
And the funniest thing was... all the times I laughed with my boyfriend and friends.
What are your greatest, worst, most memorable and funniest things from 2010?

I hope that 2011 will be even more rocking and ass-kicking than 2010, and I also hope that there will be less medical and health stuff involved, haha.
Well, right now I'm going to get ready, since we're throwing a new years party at our house tonight. I'll wear my black glittery dress from a few new year's eves ago (haha).

I hope that you all have a great great great evening, with tons of champagne, food, friends, family and fun, AND TO ALL A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

love<3

ticking seconds all in rime

2010-12-29T22:51:00.000+01:00

blue blouse from mexx, black stretch skinnies from sutherland, vintage belt, otazu bracelet, knokk.se watch, rings from six, snow boots from england.

Hey guys! I'm back home again after a few lovely days of relaxing at my family - right now i'm going to unpack and clean up my room a bit. By the way, the dresser table that I got for christmas is so so so amazing! it's standing in my room right now, I'm so incredibly happy with it!
By the way, I watched Despicable Me the other day, it's such a funny movie! i normally hate animated movies, but i liked this one, and Agnes is the most funny character ever!

IT'S SO FLUFFY, I'M GONNA DIE! (check here if you want to see what I mean) :]

love!xxx

the color of the night seems more dangerous than bright

2010-12-28T19:17:00.000+01:00

photos by me, in the woods

i love the holidays! how're u doing? xoxo

YOU TOUCHED MY HEART

2010-12-24T13:23:00.000+01:00

Hey guys! This is my favorite dress; it's from steps and I'm going to wear it tonight :] and these are my new earrings, I love them so much! I'm so glad it's Christmas! tonight is going to be so nice; everyone together, unwrapping presents, going to church, having a lovely dinner. I'm really looking forward to it! right now I'm going to put my hair up so it looks chic.. I already polished my nails in blue with silver glitters on them, haha! I'm also very happy that we have a white christmas! there's more snow everywhere than I could ever imagine! Well, I hope you all have a wonderful time!

Merry Christmas to everyone!

love

And on your sight these eyes depend

2010-12-23T14:15:00.001+01:00

only cardigan, hm shirts, belt from the sting. i found a black & white dotted ribbon and put it in my hair :] and it's snowing haha.

Hey you guys! Wow, tomorrow's Christmas already! time flies! yesterday I went shopping with my boyfriend and we had a great time, it was absolutely great! I bought this short sequin jacket to wear over my party dresses. And I got these lovely earrings from Accessorize from my boyfriend! i'll show it soon! it's still snowing outside, it just doesn't stop haha, and there's so much snow already! i really love it! Oh yeah, and yesterday evening, me and my boyfriend found out this great thing: we both love Baileys (it's a lovely creamy coffee liquor), and we both love hot chocolate, so why not combine them? so we put baileys in our hot chocolate, put some whipped cream on top, and voila! the most amazing drink ever!

Also, I have been tagged by Eri on her 'Cassie's therapy tag', thank you so much Eri, you're the best! I watched the Cassie therapy video (here) and i must say that I love it, she's so charming! so now we are doing something alike!

The task is; fill in 12 likes, 1 love, and 8 hates like Cassie in her therapy video. The words in bold are what you MUST include, the rest, you can fill in yourself. Link it back to me and tag 3 other blogs you admire!
I tag it onto my lovely blogger friends who I admire - Natalie - Alkyoni - Frei. So, here it goes!

Abracadabra, Wow!

I like boys with mesmerizing blue eyes and girls who have confidence
I like how everything looks like, covered in snow
I like golden oldie songs from the 60s or 70s
I like the differences between languages and cultures
I like waking up and knowing it's Saturday
I like the holidays, when i can be with people i love

I like shopping for presents
I like hearing bands play live
I like the feeling i get when my boyfriend puts his arm around me
I like dancing, music, fashion, or any other form of art
I like singing, humbling or whistling along to songs
I like having fun with my family and friends
I love traveling and seeing the world
Today I wished that I had a mute button for the sounds of my brother's playstation
In some ways, I love everything.
Its less, its less of a thing to like, its less distinct, its less particular
I like things that I like but I love everything
There’s more choice in like
Cos even the worst things have things you love in them
I don’t know what you mean about things I hate
I hate waking up and knowing it's Monday
I hate having stone cold hands or feet
I hate finding out that we're out of peanut butter/chocolate/chips
I hate jokes or compliments that actually make you feel embarrassed or hurt
I hate still having to take medicines every day
I hate gossip
I hate having my period, but in a way, it's a good excuse to eat even more chocolate

I hate it when people walk really slowly in front of me
I hate feeling like I'm out of control
I hate this, wow. . .Sorry.

Have fun! right now I'm off to drink a hot chocolate! love xxx

so baby turn your love up loud

2010-12-21T20:12:00.000+01:00

embellished shoulders sweater from h&m, black stretch skinnies from sutherland, black suede high heeled boots from bullboxer at shoeline (with red soles, just like louboutins, haha!), bracelet from pieces and rings from six.

Hey you guys! Today I finished all of the christmas gift shopping I had to do (I didn't have to do that of course, it's something you push yourself into) and I just finished wrapping everything, so right now I am totally done! finished! it's all set for christmas eve, haha! It feels liberating haha. outside there's snow everywhere, it's slippery on the roads, it's cold and just very winter-like. I took loads of pictures from the snow in the woods the other day, i'll show them soon. Tomorrow i'm going to a city near by to shop with my boyfriend, there's also 'winter wonderland' there, it's like a very large winter street fair / winter bazaar kind of thing, loads of little stands and places to drink hot chocolate, a big wheel (like the london eye, you know what i mean), an ice skating place, you know, the whole lot! it's always very nice there so i'm really looking forward to it! off to bed now, so I'll have loads of energy tomorrow. :] nighty-night! lovexxxx

it's so hard to describe exactly what I feel inside

2010-12-19T22:28:00.000+01:00

ph by me

Hey you guys! omg, it's been snowing so so much lately! it has been snowing for days now, it doesn't stop! there's so much snow everywhere, i love it! the garden and the woods near by look like a fairy tale land, it's amazing! i'll try to get some photos tomorrow! inside, it is warm and cozy, everyone's together, watching films and playing games, having lovely dinners. i actually love this time of year! well it is christmas holiday now, for 2 weeks, so my mind is actually on level zero, haha. but that's what a holiday is all about, isn't it?! i really feel like doing shoots but i have actually no inspiration haha, i hope i will get it soon. i've been trying some nice hair and makeup stuff lately though, it's nice to just mess around and then discover something new! well, right now I'm off to bed because I'm incredibly tired. how are your days? talk to you soon! xxxx

revenge is sweeter than you ever were

2010-12-16T11:47:00.002+01:00

my pictures from this summer, picasa collage / nasa backgrounds

The Veronicas - Revenge Is Sweeter (Than You Ever Were), still a classic! [2.08 best beat there!]

One more day to christmas holiday! yeah! kiss*

I'm in an orbit all the way around you

2010-12-15T17:46:00.000+01:00

boredom leads to weird stuff :*

hey you guys, yesterday i went back to school in a long long time, only for 2 classes though haha (slowly rebuilding all of it.. i like!) and today i only went for 1 class, yeay! tomorrow i have to go to another 2 classes, and then friday i only have to pick up my report (list of marks) and then it's christmas holiday for 2 weeks! easy life! when does your holiday start? well right now i'm going to listen to these songs below because they're my favorites these days. check them out! love,xxx!

Paper Route - In The Morning
The Commodores - Easy
Pete Doherty - Last of The English Roses
Eliza Doolittle - Pack Up
Lena - Satellite

If only I could ever change what's been done, I'd make it last forever

2010-12-13T10:21:00.008+01:00

Yesterday my boyfriend's family was having a party and we went there too. Before, I had gone to the hairdresser and she had put up my hair like this. I got loads of compliments on it! I was wearing a black dress with a red top under it, and a red rose in my hair too. My boyfriend had a red tie, so we totally matched, haha! It was really cool. What do you think of it? love

A crowded room, friends with tired eyes. I'm hiding from you, and your soul of ice. My god I thought you were someone to rely on. Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on.

2010-12-12T13:20:00.000+01:00

Hey you guys! Well, yesterday me and my parents went to the store and got a christmas tree, then we brought it home and we decorated it, and we also decorated the living room (loads of candles, little santas, a sock, a singing hat, you know, the whole lot..) ! I just love doing that so so much, it's one of my favorite things to do in the entire year. I always get really bossy then, haha (no, the tree should have more fake snow! no, not those balls, these!) it's just close at heart i think haha. well, I'm enjoying this time of year and I'm already in the Christmas mood. What about you? lovelovelove

toothpaste kisses

2010-12-09T19:11:00.000+01:00

mango floral tights, only dress, hm socks, dolcis boots, bracelets from dominican republic

(last winter's photos - but I've been living in these tights a lot the past few days again so thought i'd republish these photos haha)

Hey you guys! I'm feeling extremely uninspired right now, haha. today was a quiet day, I watched christmas with the kranks (in december, i always watch every xmas movie we own) haha love it, and i did a bit of catching up with some school work. that's practically all, haha.

I was just reading loads and loads of blogs i love and on one of them, i saw this girl did this you-didn't-know-this-about-me-post (don't remember where) so thought i'd do that too.. because i can't think of anything better haha. you're free to do it too if you want haha, i love reading stuff like that.

1 i'm seriously addicted to peanut butter. and to anything with the name chocolate in it.

2 my belly always makes the weirdest sounds.. all day long.

3 i hate lady gaga and katy perry more than any persons on this earth. (no offense, you're free to love them. but i hate them and their music, and there's no point in arguing with me about this.)

3 i am a kitchen disaster, i can't even bake an egg myself. i can bake cookies though :]

4 i love old music more than modern music. if you let me choose between the beach boys and kings of leon, i'd always pick the beach boys. golden oldies.

5 i'm allergic to loads of bandages and plasters - so if i accidentally cut my finger, i'd have to suck up the blood myself or something like that. and to insect bites. so if a bee or something sticks me which isn't that dangerous actually, i have a really big problem.

6 i have always found vlogging (video blogging) the most absurd word.

7 i love flowers (roses are my favorites) but when i have them in my room, i always forget to take care of them so they die in no time. same for fish.. poor things.

8 i used to be so scared of my class teacher haha.

9 i still have this amazing cool dog robot thing from when i was little. hate the sounds it makes though.

10 i always laugh so high and hard that i get tears in my eyes, i can't breathe, and my belly starts hurting.

11 i have been to the united states a few times, to canada, africa, the caribbean, asia, all over europe.. and i seriously still get lost in my home town. (which is the most boring town you'll ever set foot in.)

12 i listen christmas music all year round. the maine's cover of wham's last christmas, for the win!

13 i always want, no i need, my room to be super clean and organized.

14 what is with that stupid new song from the black eyed peas? seriously you crap holes, you're raping a great song from a great dance movie.

15 i love all the languages except my own (dutch).

16 i still find lizzie mcquire's larry's quote (How's life treatin' ya? - Like a baby treats a diper!) super hilarious.

17 i have been together with my boyfriend for over a year now (yesterday was our one year anniversary) and i could never live without him.

18 my room is stuffed with loads of bags (i have a corner with around 10 big bags and in them are tons of little bags), shoes (i have so so so many pairs) and clothes, it's just countless. and still, i mostly use my blue amisu bag from hungary, my black tights and black boots. but i will never ever get rid of anything else in my room..!
19 i got three new pairs of different black boots, this fall only :o woops.
20 i can't take it when people are walking really slowly in front of me. or people being slowly with anything for that matter. drives me so so so crazy!

21 no offense but i think selena gomez has a baby face. as for justin bieber. (urgh.)
22 i love high heels but i find it so hard to walk on them!
23 i am terrible with technic and electric stuff and all. i'm the girl you'll find shouting to the microwave because it does not turn on.. later on to discover that the plug was out.
24 i cry whenever i see anyone crying.
25 i wish i lived in the sixties or the seventies. :]
26 I want to have a (holiday) house or an apartment in San Francisco (my favorite city) one day!
27 i have bought so many christmas presents for my family already! I just love the holidays!
28 i love everyone on this earth that loves blogging, fashion, photography, music, reading, poetry, writing, surfing, dancing, singing, films, watching tv, relaxing, swimming, skiing, snowboarding, stars, flowers, latin and greek, yoga, chocolate and anything that's unhealthy, just like me!
29 and i love each and every one of you, who read my blog and give me the greatest comments. you guys always make my day! but i guess you already knew that so this doesn't count...
30 and I watch 'two guys and a girl' only to see ryan renolds, haha. :]

wow i didn't think i could come up with so many haha. do you have some things you think other people don't know about you? Have a great day, love<3

QS.

2010-12-07T17:13:00.000+01:00

the kisses that you blew

2010-12-05T17:10:00.000+01:00

Hey you guys! So, Christmas is coming closer and closer and my parents said I could make a little wish list, haha. I already told you about that white dresser table that I'd die for, and that I would ask that table for Xmas, and my parents said okay! Can't wait 'til it's Christmas, when I actually have it! Yeah! But so now I made a list of smaller things I love. Here is it:

- the new McFly album (I'm a number one fan so I gotta have it!)

- a Mumford&Sons album, Sign no more (love their music!)

- this totally cool bowl from Ikea (see picture below!)

- street fashion photography book(s) from amazon.co.uk

- stamps clocks (you know, the watch label that I'm addicted to, where you can mix and match the clocks and the wristbands.. can't wait to have more of that, so i can mix and match even more haha :]), I showed them before!

Have a wonderful evening everyone! We're going to have a nice family dinner and then watch a film or play a game. Kisses!

a lover's promise never came with a maybe

2010-12-03T20:18:00.000+01:00

Hey guys! just a quick update. the last few days I've been doing some walking and sitting to recover, it's al going better and better, step by step. if I keep going on like this, i might be able to run again by the time of the next ice age ! :) so today i got the stitches out (or something like that), i must say that the wounds / scars look very clean and little. not that bad.
well, outside there is just so much snow and i love it so badly! Tonight we're going to watch The Proposal (I love that film, I saw it in cinema in Brighton when I was there on holiday, in the summer of 2009) and count down the clock till twelve 'cause then it's my boyfriends birthday. and tomorrow I'm going to his place to celebrate his birthday. Can't wait to actually see people again, and talk to them, and have some fun, and stop thinking about recovering and scars and stitches and muscles and stuff, for a while. why do you think i love watching films this much? to focus on other stuff. well, I hope you have a wonderful evening, talk to you soon! love<3

don't you ask me if it's love my dear

2010-12-02T09:42:00.000+01:00

Photos by me, taken on tuesday - Ph1 the raspberries that i always eat in summer, are now covered in snow! Ph2 my adorable little rabbit. she's the cutest, she's white and soft, with cute black eyes.. her name is Solace (named after james bond's quantum of solace, indeed..)! well, at this photo she sits calmly and in a position that makes her look small, but in reality.. she's always wild, running around, and when she stretches, she's so big! Ph3 the garden full of snow, i love it!

For me, today's gonna be just another day of lying on the couch, watching TV and do some reading.. And walking, some exercise haha. not so bad. What are you up to? lovelovelove
P.S. lyrics from One Night Only - Say you don't want it (I'm in love with this song!)

Talk all the talk with a poet's style

Tongue like electric, eyes like a child

Buy only wives and the classic cars

Live like a saviour, live like the stars

Talk all the talk with a model's smile

Tongue like electric, eyes like a child

Buy all your highs and the classic cars

Die on the front page, just like the stars

The big screens, the plastic-made dreams

Say you don't want it, say you don't want it

It's our world, the picture-book girls

Say you don't want it, say you don't want it

Don't you ask me if it's love my dear

Love don't really mean a thing round here

The fake scenes the plastic-made dreams

Say you don't want it, say you don't want it

heart shaped bruises and late night kisses

2010-12-01T09:48:00.001+01:00

hey you! (found my dad's old hat from the old days serving the country, and some funny old beanie I used to wear when I was like, seven.) check this song 'toothpaste kisses by the maccabees', it's the cutest! in the meantime I'll be looking out the window and enjoying the winter wonderland outside.. and praying the snow won't melt! love

cradle me, I'll cradle you

I'll win your heart with a woop-a-woo

pulling shapes just for your eyes

so with toothpaste kisses and lines

I'll be yours and you'll be

lay with me, I'll lay with you

we'll do the things that lovers do

put the stars in our eyes

and with heart shaped bruises

and late night kisses

devine

THE ARRIVAL OF MISTER WINTER

2010-11-30T17:45:00.000+01:00

Hey guys! I love that it has snowed so much! these pictures are from yesterday, when there was only little snow, but when I'm looking out of my window right now, there is so much more! I adore it!
Ph1 me by my dad (don't start to think I'm all recovered again, just because this picture looks quite okay - i was all in pain killers, and i still can't stand up straight for longer than a minute.. but for the picture i had to, haha Ph2,3 taken on the little walk outside we made (my dad takes me for a walk every day now, to recover sooner. it's even nicer when it has snowed!).
Well I've had a quite good day today, it went a whole lot better than yesterday. I can stand a bit straighter now and I've just felt better than yesterday! So I hope that this line up will proceed :) well, since it's all cold and snowy outside (which I actually love), I have the perfect right to go and find the tv remote now. Tonight i think it will be star wars time... yeaaah. (who's with me on this one?) kisses

and I'm losing as I'm fighting from no one, baby

2010-11-29T11:53:00.000+01:00

Remember I told you how badly I was craving the black suede boots that I spotted in town? well, the other day, when I was in the hospital, my parents & boyfriend had a present for me... my dream shoes! I was so happy! I just have them now! I already know what I'm going to pair them with, haha! I can't wear them right now unfortunately though, but when I'm all better from the operation, you bet that these amazing boots will be glued to my feet! love

TODAY'S INSPIRATION (XL)

2010-11-29T11:04:00.000+01:00

I am seriously in love with these pictures! from Cherryblossom, Betty and Rumi.

I DID IT!

2010-11-27T13:01:00.000+01:00

Hey you guys! Well, I'm home again! yesterday I got home from the hospital, I have never been happier to see my front door again, and the couch, and my bed, and my room... feels so great! The kidney operation went well, it was laparoscopic (with holes instead of a giant incision - hard to explain, look it up ;)) and the wounds are little, the scars on my belly will be clean and small. (again, hard to explain.) I suffered from the narcosis though, but i will not go to the details here haha. I slept a lot in the hospital, I ate very little. the bladder catheter went out on thursday I believe, and the infuse went out on friday. well that's when I started getting out of my bed and taking a few first steps again, haha. felt like a baby. it's still hard to walk, because it hurts my belly a lot (actually, everything i do hurts my belly. but that's okay, the muscles and skin in/on my belly have got to recover a lot too. that will get better soon, as the little wounds start to heel and all.) but alright, at least I can walk to the bathroom now. so yesterday I got home from the hospital, and here I can start eating again (the sandwiches and peanut butter that I know and love, instead of that weird hospital food!) , and then I have to rebuild everything (walking, or every physical activity for that matter) but I am patient. it will take a few more weeks of slowly, calmly recovering from the surgery. my belly is still very swollen up as well now, because they had to pump in a lot of air for the operation (so that they could actually reach the kidney) and that air is still there mostly, so it will take some time before my belly is normal and flat again, you know. well, though they took great care of me at the hospital, i have to say that it is so great to be back home. right now I'm lying on the couch, all sorts of needed stuff around me (laptop, tv remote, cell, ipod, two giant piles of magazines, some water, pain killers, dvds and books, and a lovely family that always helps me if i want to get up (that hurts my belly so badly, you have no idea. imagine all the belly muscles you use when getting up, and mine are all so bruised!). I have been watching winter sports world cup all morning actually haha, it's quite cool. have a great day you cool guys! talk to you soon xxxx

The lips that slip are the lips that press and the lips that leak seem to know you best. I put bodies into motion, keep this skin out in the open. Liars turn me on. Bed spread bandit since '89, you wear your heart on your sleeve, and threw mine to the sky. Bounce bounce baby bounce back to me. This is it, call it quits with honesty. Every word is a curse let loose on me, your mouth it moves but fails to speak. And when you use your lips they better be on me.

2010-11-25T11:47:00.001+01:00

*Auto post* Pictures taken in Zanzibar, Tanzania, Africa - h+m shirt&trousers, sunglasses from spain.

The lies that tied your tongue in knots

Are the words that grew to hit my spots

So filthy, dialed desire

Swallowed pride but spit out fire

Liars turn me on

''The Cab - Bounce''

I can hear it in your voice, you care. Let me run my fingers through your hair. I'll keep you company at night, and baby I'm here to make this right. And I'll run, have a little faith in me. You're scared and alone. And I'll run, this is where we both break free. I'll bring you home.

2010-11-24T10:11:00.002+01:00

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Pictures taken in Africa 2010 - ph1 sunrise, ph2,3 me, ph4 if it's yellow, let it mellow... whatever that means. :] BTW: addictive: The Cab - I'll run :) hug

I can see it in your eyes, you're scared. All these things they force you to do aren't fair. I'm here to chase away these tears, and baby we can chase away these fears. Because sometimes baby, you fall on your back, but she is three times the lady you'll never have. And you know, you know it's true. This is a fight I refuse to lose.

2010-11-23T11:29:00.001+01:00

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Photobomb Africa 2010
Ph1 sssstripes ! Ph2 Kilimanjaro, highly visible :) Ph3 flight from tanzania to zanzibar - cockpit Ph4 i never wear bracelets :) Ph5 Dar Es Salaam skyline <3

You've been hanging with the unloved kids who you never really liked and you never trusted. But you are so magnetic, you pick up all the pins. Never committing to anything, you don't pick up the phone when it ring ring rings. Don't be so pathetic, just open up and sing.

2010-11-22T10:04:00.000+01:00

these are pictures of how i looked like at my sweet sixteen party this summer. hm jeans, vintage blazer, vero moda top, sacha clutch, six jewelry, knokk.se watch, six earrings, dolcis boots.

hey you. well, today I'm off to the hospital and the kidney operation will be happening tomorrow. This time I've had less time to prepare for it, but that's okay, I'm ready for it anyway. This roller coaster has been going on for too long, and now it is time to get off. So it will be quiet out here for a while, since I have to stay in the hospital for a few days after the operation. I'll set some photography auto posts though. Have a great week, talk to you soon! xxx

I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore

2010-11-19T21:57:00.000+01:00

Ph1 this amazing dresser table is number one on my Christmas wish list. And guess what we just did...? We went to get it! which means that it's practically mine already! Just have to wait until christmas before it's actually in my room, haha! :)

Ph2 this lovely shoe I tried on today. [they're so much darker black in real life, by the way.] I immediately loved it! and now it's stuck in my head, haha! I'd pair it with dark tight jeans, a black top and maybe a little blazer or jacket. and a big belt. adore!

Ph3 that grey/brown patchwork plaid I got today! I have it wrapped around me at this moment! it's so warm and comfy, I really love it!

Ph4,5 these will definitely be the next Stamps clocks I'm going to buy. I showed you those two watches a few days ago, I believe? well, Stamps is an entire brand of different single clocks and wristbands, and you can mix & match them any way you like! I already got the rose clock and the squares clock, and I've got a white and a black wristband. And these two clocks, zebra en scribble flowers, are definitely going to be my new purchases for this new addiction of mine, haha :)

Well, this was what's been in my head lately (as for shopping stuff, that is). What will your next purchase be? Tomorrow I'm going to visit the open day of that other university I'm interested in. So excited! Kiss&hug

In the middle of the night, that's when you caught my eye. I chased you round in memories. Through the breeze and the trees and you tease me, but hey, the clock's turning around. And you're still playing these games. It's such a waste to bring me down.

2010-11-18T19:36:00.000+01:00

Photos; africa 2010 Ph1 zanzibar ocean paradise resort pool Ph2 my sweet sixteen birthday cake! isn't it cool?! Ph3 me Ph4 kilimanjaro beer

hello you cool guys. this week has been so busy with school, I never like it when that is the case, but it's my last school week for quite a while so I thought I'd really try my best, haha. well, right now my eyes are nearly closed, that's how tired I am. If I lied down now, I'd be asleep right away, haha. how was your week? any good dreams, new cool songs, nice rumors? kiss & hug :*

SERVA ME, SERVABO TE

2010-11-16T10:47:00.002+01:00

sutherland skinnies, hm top and drape front cardigan, vd flats, vintage belt, mexx necklace, stamps watch

Serva me, servabo te

Save me and I'll save you.

Belief is a beautiful armor, but makes for the heaviest sword. Like punching under water, you never can hit who you're trying for. Some need the exhibition and some have to know they tried. It's the chemical weapon for the war that's raging on inside. Everyone believes from emptiness to everything.

2010-11-15T10:26:00.002+01:00

last weekend's photos (sea, hotel)
Hello. busy monday after a cool weekend. they should invent something where you can stop the time when things are fun, and when you can fast forward when it's stupid or boring, i.e. school. Quid tempus fugit. Btw, I tried to upload this little funny video of me and my friends talking rubbish, from about a year ago, but it didn't work, unfortunately. help? love for you! <3

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends, free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I've been. Then you come crashing in, like the realest thing. Trying my best to understand all that your love can bring. Half of my heart's got a grip on the situation, half of my heart takes time. Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you that I can't keep loving you with half of my heart.

2010-11-14T10:06:00.002+01:00

Ph1 leaves - sepia filter Ph2,3 my stamps watches! photos by me John Mayer - Half of my heart

I was made to believe I'd never love somebody else

I made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself

Lonely was the song I sang, 'till the day you came

Showing me another way and all that my love can bring

Half of my heart's got a grip on the situation

half of my heart takes time

half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you

that I can't keep loving you

with half of my heart

Your faith is strong, but I can only fall short for so long

Down the road, later on

you will hate that I never gave more to you than half of my heart

but I can't stop loving you <3

Schrijven in het zand is voor mij nu wel gedaan. Want de letters van je naam blijven in het zand niet staan. Gun me een vaarwel en vergeef me dat ik hardop alle passen tel. Laten we dansen, m'n liefste, dansen aan zee. Een voor je tranen, twee voor de mijne, drie voor de horizon waaraan we verdwijnen.

2010-11-13T10:01:00.000+01:00

Unedited - Photos taken by me, Tanzania, summer 2010

Hellocoolies. So glad it's weekend, again! I'm off to pack a little bag, because we're going to the coast for one day and one night. a little weekend away. walk on the beach, feel the wind in your hair and in your ears, free from thoughts. not a bad idea! I do have to do loads of homework though... haha, then the sand will be in my dutch literature book too! have a nice weekend, ttys ! kiss:*

A mile and a half on a bus takes a long time, the odor of old prison food takes a long time to pass you by. Day upon day of this wandering gets you down. Nobody gives you a chance or a dollar in this old town. Hovering silence from you is a giveaway, squalor and smoke's not your style, I don't like this place, we better go.

2010-11-11T19:31:00.000+01:00

low contrast ''ghost'' fade photography vs darkness + flash

Hey coolies:) today it was another busy day at school, i can't take it any longer, me thinks. i did have my first italian class though, like i told you about, and it was very cool haha :) right now i'm listening to the music of avatar, it's so amazingly pretty, go and download asap you guys! :) well tomorrow i'm going into town to see if i can find a nice party dress for the holidays. or maybe a blouse with some tight black leggings or something. something purple or light green is what i have in mind. as if i don't already have a full closet, haha :) enjoy your evening! oh and listen to this addictive belle and sebastian song on the way! peace 'n love

DINSDAG.

2010-11-09T21:09:00.000+01:00

Inspiration from weheartit.com

Hey you coolies :) I'm feeling very uninspired right now so I thought I'd upload some cool inspirational stuff. I've had a long and stupid day.. how was yours? oh i just remembered I have to go to the dentist tomorrow afternoon. don't like that at all, haha. kisses and hugs

So tie me to a post and block my ears, I can see widows and orphans through my tears. I know my call despite my faults, and despite my growing fears. So come out of your cave, walking on your hands, and see the world hanging upside down. You can understand dependence when you know the maker's hand.

2010-11-07T11:43:00.000+01:00

skirt from didi children (I got it when I was like 10 or 11, it still fits!) pimkie shirt, dolcis boots, envy belt

helloooo. yesterday I went to the open day of this university I like, and I enjoyed it very much. it's a really cool pleace, good vibe, I've always liked it there. and they offer the exact law & management study that I want! And saturday in 2 weeks, I'm going to this open day of another university, I'm curious :) well, I have this Management & Organisation test tomorrow, and there's so much I have to do (I'm like chapters behind...) .. so I'd better go off to work then. Though I can think of better ways to spend my sunday afternoon. What are you up to? love!<3

Never an honest word, and that was when I ruled the world. It was the wicked and wild wind, blew down the doors to let me in. Shattered windows and the sound of drums. People couldn't believe what I'd become. Revolutionaries wait, for my head on a silver plate. Just a puppet on a lonely string, oh who would ever want to be king?

2010-11-05T18:05:00.000+01:00

Hey you cool guys! I'm so glad it's finally weekend, this has been such a busy stressful week...!

Newsflash: my old bike has been kind of been... dead for the past few months. No, seriously, Saint Peter called me a few times saying 'why am I still waiting for your freaking bike?!' anyway, I didn't want to let it go because it's just a memory thing, you know. But today I got this cool new bike (it's bigger in reality than on this picture, though), so I can actually cycle up a hill again, instead of walking it. (I couldn't even drive up a hill with my old bike anymore, haha. And that's not really cool since where I live is extremely hilly...) well, those days are over now, I can cycle all around again. :) And well, I live in the freaking stupid netherlands so you really need a bike. everyone always drives their bikes everywhere here. it's like... just... what you do, haha. well, right now I'm off to my boyfriend's place... and I'm traveling by bike, of course! :) have a great friday evening, love! <3

I am on my own, but it's nice to see you came alone. And this might sound wrong, but I can only tell you through a song. And I will take my time, 'cause it's the only thing that's on my side. And this can't be real, tell me, do you ever feel?

2010-11-04T18:51:00.000+01:00

skirt and belt from the sting, shirt and long cardigan from h&m, dotted tights from h&m, vd boots, six earrings, pandora bracelet, knokk.se watch

Hey you cool guys! Remember that math test I told you about, which I though hadn't really gone well? I had a 7.7 for that test (it goes from one [the lowest] to ten [the highest] here, for the non dutchies)! So I was very happy, since I expected a very low mark instead! :) And I got an 8.0 for that Latin vocabulary test, yeay! And I also had this other Latin test today (Ovid poetry) and it went well! Tomorrow I have this history test, about the economic depression in the 1930s, the second world war, and all of that. I like it, but it's so much, you know! Anyway, so right now I'm off to study for that.

Oh, and I'm very looking forward to this saturday, because I'm going to the 'open day' of this one university that I like very much. I'm now in the year before my last year in high school, so the whole ''off to college thing'' is slowly nearing...!
You have a lot of universities here and they all have a few 'open days' in a year, which means everyone can come and have a look at the university, there are talks and open classes, a lot of explanation about the whole place, so it's very nice to go and see that. I also want to check out the open days of 3 other universities, and then I'm sure I can choose two from those four that I like, and then you can go and 'walk along for one day' with a student that actually goes there, so you know exactly what it's going to be. So, those 'walk along days' I will do next year, when I have eliminated those four universities that I'm interested in, into two. :) But first, this open day of the first university, this saturday.

Aaaand I just reminded myself that I really have to finish this book for English class.. bummer. I like reading, but only if I actually like the book! And those books they always want us to read in English class... no, they're just not nice. Can you recommend any good books?
Right now I really need to study, haha. Have a nice evening lovelies!<3 hug

YOU WON'T UNDERSTAND.

2010-11-02T17:40:00.000+01:00

primark jeans + hm tops + only cardigan + six jewelry

Jambo! Gosh, I've had such a horrible day. Today I had this latin vocabulary test and it went quite well, but I also had this math test (for which I had studied my ass off all weekend + all monday, plus, which I have stressed so much about) and still it didn't really go great, it was very difficult, and I can't really take it when I feel badly about a test I made, and especially not when I put so freaking much effort in it! and I am very moody if you know what I mean, and school is sucking the hell out of me, and I'm so tired and I just want to go to bed and sleep and not wake up until it is summer again... Lovexxx<3

Had a little love, but I spread it thin. Falling in your arms and out again. Made a bad name for my game around town. Tore up my heart, and shut it down. Nothing to do, nowhere to be. A simple little kind of free. Nothing to do, no one but me, and that's all that I need. I'm perfectly lonely.

2010-10-31T10:01:00.000+01:00

my mum braided my hair :) wearing an american apparel lace shirt

Another sunday with loads of school work. How many days to the next holiday?